#1- Momster Report

Its been a week now that I am childless - now now, before you judge me, just read first.

Well my 2nd one is now spending his pre-school holiday holiday, on a holiday with his grandparents in Malaysia. 

He is 5 and still in kindy but he's entitled to still have fun, well in my context that it.

The other is with his dad spending quality time.

I try not to deprive my children from childhood - 

Childhood deprivation is also called pre-mature aging, again in my context.

Motherhood 

only scares me when I think about their future and education.

After being one for 12 years, I learned and unlearn many things along the way.

Like some advises becomes obsolete after a while, some advises are irrelevant and some "advisors" just need a punch on their faces.

Motherhood

caught me off guard - NO not like that.

I thought pregnancy was fun and stuff plus at 22 I never really thought that being a mom was tough.

YEAH RIGHT! My mom did not give me the heads up about how painful it can be. THANKS MOM!

Im guessing maybe if she does, she might never see both of her handsome grandsons. :hehe:

Post-natal

was crazy, swollen breasts with spoilt pumps makes you wanna rip your husband's hair from his scalp.

Irrelevant comments about breastfeeding just pisses me off further like - 'oh a real mother should breastfeed her child'

To tell you the truth i did for only 3 months and that my friends, was not good enough to some.

My kids were bottle-fed with MY breast milk for 3 months - you think its funny? I don't think so. 

Yeah my nipples are mutants I think. Those boys never knew the feeling of having breast-friends.

My feelings were scarred both times by comments like that but hey I moved on.

" Don't tell someone who got his foot amputated and tell that he is less human right?" - Imbeciles!

I went through normal delivery for both - no epidurals - healing after delivery was as horrible as delivery itself.

Sleepless nights became a routine right from the delivery room until 2 years later.

I depend heavily on my mom after my 1st one.

2nd I was on my own.

And now you tell me to go through all that again, I am telling you hell no.

Watching 

my kids grow up is another.

We grew up to alot of things from books to music to discipline to religion.

I guess being a mom is like trying to get up and balancing on a slackline- we keep trying to get back up every time we fall.

Keep telling myself every child is unique, so is parenting.

There will never be a manual to perfect parenting.

That's just too easy, easy is boring.

If you ask me how I fair as a mom, " I think I did pretty well" 

:ehem:

What?

I need to give myself the credit, if not me then who?

I learned patience.

I learned the art of nagging gracefully - NOT!

I learned about myself a lot - that I am actually over-protective which i think is a problem, anything that is too much is not good- right? So...

I learned to calm down and chillex.

One thing about me is...no one can tell me what's right and what's wrong about parenting - nope!

'Cos i am stubborn like that and i set my own rules.

Therefore, good luck to my children we shall be fun loving, caring, respect others, be humble, help the less fortunate and shall not be discriminating.

ps: I lately found out that my 12yr old hero is into politics, am I suppose to be scared, concerned or worried?

 

Yours Terribly,

Awkward  Mom the l..